When I was younger, I was always taught that breakfast was the most significant meal. It gives you the energy to keep going the whole day. In my family, breakfast would be a regular occurrence.
Of course, that was in the past. For weeks now, we have had hardly anything to eat. A warm loaf of bread dipped in thyme and oil and a slice of cheese have been in my dreams.
Instead, I start a new day of genocide with a tasteless, nearly-expired “not-for-sale WFP fortified biscuit,” which I purchased for $1.50.
I have been following the news recently and have started to feel that my wish for something other than a World Food Programme (WFP) biscuit may soon be fulfilled.
The Palestinians in Gaza have reportedly gotten sick of being told they are starving in the United States. It has now decided to put an end to the hunger, or at least the obnoxious complaints about it.
And so, with unshakeable confidence and pride in its own ingenuity, the US government has announced a new mechanism for delivering food to Gaza. By the end of May, the “Gaza Humanitarian Foundation” is rumored to be set to resume food distribution and distribute “300 million meals,” an extraordinary name that has been added to our genocide vocabulary of NGOs and charities. Israel has volunteered to support the “humanitarian” process while continuing to murder people.
While this new feeding “mechanism” is being set up, the Israeli government, “under US pressure”, announced that it will let in “a basic quantity of food” in order to prevent “the development of a hunger crisis”, international media reported. Only a week will be allotted for the resume.
We are not at all surprised by these announcements here in Gaza, where the hunger crisis is already “well-developed.” We are well used to Israel – with foreign backing – turning on and off the “food button” as it pleases.
Our Israeli inmates have been rationing our food so that we can never go beyond the level of survival, where we have been imprisoned for years. They made a public declaration to the world long before this genocide that they were keeping us on a diet and counting our calories so we wouldn’t die but instead suffer. This was not a fleeting penalty, it was an official government policy.
Anyone who fought back against the blockade from the outside who was driven by basic humanity was attacked, even killed.
Some claim that there was no reason for the trucks to be allowed to enter. True, they were. They frequently, however, were not, especially when we, the prisoners, were found to have behaved improperly.
I’ve been told that my neighborhood bakery has been shut down numerous times because there isn’t enough cooking gas, or that my favorite cheese has been turned down because our jail guards have decided it’s a “dual-use” item and can’t enter Gaza.
We were good at growing our own food, but we could not do much of that either because much of our fertile soil was near the prison fence, and hence out of reach. Although we enjoyed fishing, it was also closely monitored and restricted. You could get shot if you traveled beyond the shore.
All of this humiliating, calculated blockade was taking place well before October 7, 2023.
After that day, Gaza’s food intake drastically decreased. Even though I’ve lived under the Israeli blockade since I was born, I still felt the shackles of the blockade on Gaza more perceptible than ever. For the first time, I found myself struggling to secure something as basic as bread. The world will undoubtedly not allow this to continue, I recall thinking.
The struggle has only gotten worse, 19 months later, 590 days later.
On March 2, Israel banned all food and other aid from entering Gaza. We are now more and more nostalgic about the earlier stages of the crisis, when the suffering was milder tolerable.
For instance, we could still have tomatoes in our cans a few weeks ago because our stomach-rotting canned beans were still available. But now, vegetable vendors are nowhere to be found.
I’d like to re-experience the slight disgust at the sight of worms squirming through infested flour because it would allow my mother to make bread again because both bakeries have closed and flour has almost all but stopped. Finding unrequited fava beans is all I could hope for now, in my opinion.
I recognise that others still have it much worse than I do. The struggle to find food is agonizing for parents of young children.
Take, for instance, my barber. When I last went to him for a haircut two weeks ago, he looked exhausted.
“Wish you a thought. Bread hasn’t been eaten in a while. Whatever flour I manage to buy every few days, I save for my children. I only consume what is necessary to survive and not feel hungry. Simply put, I don’t understand why the world treats them this way. If we are not worthy of life in their eyes, then at least have mercy on our hungry children. He said, “It’s okay if they want to starve us, but not our children.”
After 19 months of continuous Israeli killing, this may seem like a cruel sacrifice, but it is what parenting has evolved to. Parents are consumed by fear, not just for their children’s safety, but for the possibility that their children might be bombed while hungry. Every home and tent-hold in Gaza are in adolescence.
The famine-spreading landscape in the few barely functioning hospitals is even scarier. Babies and children looking like skeletons lie on hospital beds, malnourished mothers sit by them.
Daily sightings of abused Palestinian children have become commonplace. Even though we are having trouble finding food, seeing them breaks our hearts. We want to help. Perhaps a can of peas could change things, in our opinion. What can peas do, however, for a child who appears to be a fragile shell of skin and bones and has marasmus?
Meanwhile, the world sits in silence, watching Israel block aid and deliver bombs and asking questions in disbelief.
One of Gaza City’s busiest streets, al-Wehda Street, was bombed on May 7 by the Israeli army. A functioning restaurant was hit by one missile as it approached a street vendor intersection. At least 33 Palestinians were killed.
Online images of a pizza table covered in one of the victims’ blood were posted. The bloodbath did not draw attention to the pizza scene in Gaza, which attracted international attention. The world demanded answers: how can you be in a famine when you can order pizza?
In the midst of genocidal famine, there are indeed vendors and eateries. vendors who charge $25 for a can of beans and $25 for a kilogram of flour. A restaurant where the smallest and most expensive pizza slice in the world is served — a piece of bad-quality dough, cheese, and the blood of those who craved it.
To convince people of our worthiness, we must explain the existence of pizza. While tons of life-saving aid is awaiting at the border crossings to be allowed into and distributed by already fully operational aid organizations, the outline of an abstract US plan to feed us seems reasonable to this world.
We in Gaza have seen PR exercises masked as “humanitarian action” before. We are able to identify the airdrops, which were causing more deaths than feeding. We recall the $ 230m pier, which lacked the resources to transport 500 truckloads of aid from the sea to Gaza, which could have been accomplished via an open land crossing in half a day.
We in Gaza are hungry, but we are no fools. Israel’s permission, according to US law, means that it can only starve and murder us. Washington is aware that its top priorities are not to stop the genocide. We know that we are hostages not just of Israel, but also of the US.
Not just famine, but also the fear of outsiders arriving under the guise of aid, which will help lay the groundwork for colonization, are what keep us haunted. I am certain that my people won’t be harmed by the use of food, even if the US plan is carried out and even if we are permitted to eat before Israel’s upcoming bombing.
Israel, the US, and the world should understand that we will not trade land for calories. Even when we are exhausted, we will liberate our nation.