Lauren Goodger reveals terrifying struggle – ‘I don’t want to feel this pain’

TOWIE icon Lauren Goodger is fighting to get her mental health back on track after suffering “terrifying” anxiety attacks – but a source says she’s determined to get out of her ‘rut’

Reality star Lauren Goodger is fighting to get her mental health back on an even keel after suffering a bout of severe anxiety while on holiday(Image: Beretta-Sims/Raw Image Ltd)

Reality star Lauren Goodger is fighting to get her mental health back on an even keel after suffering a bout of severe anxiety while on holiday.

The OG TOWIE star, who was enjoying a sunshine break with her four-year-old daughter, Larose, was forced to return to the UK prematurely after what she described as a series of “terrifying” attacks.

Taking to Instagram, she apologised for her absence from social media, explaining, “Sorry I’ve been MIA. My holiday was cut short due to severe anxiety – it was overwhelming.”

Lauren, who turns 39 this week, is now said to be doing everything she possibly can to get herself back on course, as OK! reports – above all for little Larose. “Hiding it all from my daughter was draining,” Lauren admitted, once back on UK soil.

“But I’m proud I pushed through, even when it got tough. Now that I’m home, I’ve got a lot of work to do on myself. Those two days of anxiety attacks were terrifying.”

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Taking to Instagram, she apologised for her absence from social media, explaining, “Sorry I’ve been MIA. My holiday was cut short due to severe anxiety – it was overwhelming.”
Taking to Instagram, she apologised for her absence from social media, explaining, “Sorry I’ve been MIA. My holiday was cut short due to severe anxiety – it was overwhelming.”(Image: Instagram/laurengoodger)
Lauren, who turns 39 this week, is now said to be doing everything she possibly can to get herself back on course
Lauren, who turns 39 this week, is now said to be doing everything she possibly can to get herself back on course(Image: Raw Image Ltd/GoffPhotos.com)

The star said she is now focusing on “self-care and healing” as she tries to find balance again. A source close to Lauren told new,

“Lauren has been struggling with anxiety for years and it’s a real battle for her. She doesn’t like to talk about it too often because she doesn’t like people worrying about her. She would hate for her daughter to see her upset so unfortunately she finds herself hiding, which she knows isn’t good for either of them.”

They added, “Lauren really wants to focus on self-care and how to manage her anxiety, she doesn’t want to feel like this any more. She’s had a really tough few years and is a kind, sensitive soul – everything hits her and sometimes she just can’t cope. Now is the time for her to really focus on herself and get out of this rut. She’s hoping it’s going to be the start of feeling good.”

Despite her joy at returning to TOWIE last year, Lauren has faced a hugely challenging few years. In July 2024, she revealed she was still suffering from PTSD following the heartbreaking loss of her daughter Lorena two years earlier.

The newborn tragically passed away shortly after her birth after her umbilical cord became wrapped around her neck – something Lauren has described as “the most traumatic experience of my life”.

Speaking about the long-term toll Lorena’s death took on her mental health, the star said, “I’ve 100% got PTSD bad and it will be with me for a long time. I’ve never suffered with depression, but I have therapy for health anxiety. I worry the worst is going to happen because I’ve already experienced a loss.”

Despite her joy at returning to TOWIE last year, Lauren has faced a hugely challenging few years
Despite her joy at returning to TOWIE last year, Lauren has faced a hugely challenging few years(Image: DIGITAL/EROTEME.CO.UK)
Lauren first joined TOWIE in 2010, while engaged to TV and radio host Mark Wright
Lauren first joined TOWIE in 2010, while engaged to TV and radio host Mark Wright(Image: WireImage)

Her agony was further compounded after Lorena and Larose’s father, Charles Drury, was arrested after reportedly attacking her on the day of Lorena’s funeral. But the charges were dropped in February 2024 after Lauren withdrew her support for the case. Over the past 12 months, Lauren is said to have grown closer to her ex, who recently revealed he has moved to Essex to be nearer their daughter.

“I recently relocated from living three hours away from my daughter (I still saw her a lot) to now living 10 minutes away,” he posted last month. “As much as I miss my family I did what was right for not just my little girl but me too.”

The update came just weeks after he accompanied Lauren and Larose on another getaway – taken to be a sign that the pair have rekindled their romance. In the days following her recent holiday crisis, Lauren appeared to be putting herself first, treating herself to some much-needed pampering as she worked to boost her mental health.

“Blow-dry always helps the soul,” she captioned a snapof herself looking glam in Loughton’s Elem hair salon. She later treated Larose to a wash, cut and blow-dry at children’s hairdressers Little Fidgets.

Lauren first joined TOWIE in 2010, while engaged to TV and radio host Mark Wright. She returned as a permanent cast member in 2024 and earlier this year announced that she would be heading to Portugal with her co-stars, adding that it would be her first trip abroad in five years.

She described the jaunt as “a huge deal”, adding, “I’ve not been away on holiday abroad in five years, due to my severe trauma and anxiety. However, the TOWIE bosses are who I feel most comfortable with to be going abroad to help with this.”

Let’s hope that the future for Lauren involves plenty of peace, happiness and serenity – and a little more of putting herself first…

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Love Island’s Helena Ford claims she can’t return to her air hostess job after villa

Reality star Helena Ford worked as part of the cabin crew of an airline before shse found fame on ITV’s Love Island – but now fears she’ll never get her old job back

Love Island’s Helena Ford fears she will never get her old job back(Image: ITV)

Love Island star Helena Ford is convinced she’s ruined any chance she ever had to make a return to the world of air travel hospitality. The reality star had a career as a member of cabin crew before she joined the 2025 cast of ITV’s dating show.

And while some former Love Island contestants have returned to the careers they once had before fame, Helena, 29, is convinced she won’t be able to make her way back to her former job. But the star only has herself to blame.

While appearing in the twelfth season of the long-running reality show, Helena raised eyebrows when she mouthed off about some of the passengers she had dealt with in the past. And now she thinks her indiscretion will have cost her any hope of returning to the job.

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Helena Ford posing beside a private jet
Helena worked as part of an airline’s cabin crew in her pre-Love Island days
Love Island's Mitch Taylor recently revealed he has gone back to his old job
Love Island’s Mitch Taylor recently revealed he has gone back to his old job(Image: Instagram/mitcheltaylor_)

She told the Daily Star: “I don’t think they will take me back after that roast I did. Plus all the passengers will think, ‘Oh no, I’m going to get roasted now.’”

She continued: “Never say never but I’m not looking to go back at the moment, definitely not. I think I need take a break and to do some therapy first – I watched a lot of things back that I didn’t like in myself, so there’s that to work on first.”

Earlier this week, 2023 season 10 contestant Mitchel Taylor – who also appeared on Love Island: All Stars in 2024 – revealed he had given up on his Influencer lifestyle to return to the world of work.

The 27-year-old took to Instagram to reveal how his showbiz lifestyle was over and he was back in the swing of a regular nine-to-five job. Insisting the influencer lifestyle was no longer paying the bills, Mitch – who was best known for his chaotic ways in the lavish villa – has returned to his role as a gas engineer.

Helena caused a stir on Love Island this summer
Helena caused a stir on Love Island this summer(Image: ITV)

He said on social media: “Guys, if you’re not nearly 30 like gorgeous Messy Mitch, and you’re still trying to survive off Love Island money, not locking into other ventures, then yes, you’re stupid.

“You gotta do Love Island and you gotta do your day job, because money keeps sexy girlfriends and buys houses.”

His jokey confession came after his had updated his Snapchat fans on his latest move. “Yes guys listen giving you an update on my life and to be honest with you, I’ve just not posted on Snapchat at all since,” he said.

“I didn’t have a 9-5 for two years because I was, like, old rock star famous cool guy. Now I’m poor, so I’ve got to work.”

But he said that having a job “isn’t a bad thing” as he jovially spoke to followers. And he also ruled out a return to the cast of Love Island, revealing he is in a relationship.

Mitch confessed he is currently dating TikTok’s Hayley Griffin. He went on: “And I can’t go on a dating show because I’m in love with a girl. But it’s not that, guys, it’s just like I’ve been working loads.”

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Love Island’s Yasmin Pettet breaks social media silence after Jamie Rhodes ‘split’

Love Island star Yasmin Pettet’s relationship with fellow reality TV star Jamie Rhodes is thought to be over and she’s now posted to Instagra, for the first time since the speculation

Yasmin and Jamie in the Love Island villa(Image: ITV/Shutterstock)

Love Island finalist Yasmin Pettet has returned to social media following speculation her relationship with Jamie Rhodes is over. The duo made it to the final of the latest series and looked to have build a natural connection.

However, despite appearing happy when they took to the National Television Awards red carpet on Wednesday, by the end of the night Jamie is said to have told pals she had “f***ed off”. And it’s reported Yasmin had been seen holding hands with The Traitors star Freddie Fraser at the same event.

And now, days later, Yasmin has taken to social media to share a new post. However, she has made sure to ignore any mention of the speculation.

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Yasmin posted on Instagram
Yasmin posted on Instagram(Image: Instagram/yasminpettet111 )
Yasmin and Jamie at the NTAs
Yasmin and Jamie at the NTAs(Image: Getty Images for the NTA’s)

Instead, she posed following a hot pilates session. She took a selfie in the mirror while sitting on an exercise mat wearing a short black outfit. She had her long black hair tied back for the workout.

Sources had claimed that Yasmin and Jamie’s relationship was now over just months after they left the Love Island villa as a couple. According to The Sun, a source claimed that Yasmin told Freddie at the NTAs that the pair needed to “go somewhere private, no one can see”. And it’s said Jamie had hit out Yasmin’s disappearing act to his pals.

Another partygoer at the event told the outlet: “Yasmin and Jamie weren’t together at the party a lot at all, compared to Harry and Shakira and Cach and Toni, who were glued to each other’s sides.

“Then I saw her holding hands with Freddie and pulling him away. She said, ‘We need to go somewhere private, no one can see.’”

“I was totally shocked because I loved them on the show and they seemed like the best connection.”

Earlier in the night, Yasmin had told reporters at the annual event that the couple were “really good”. She said: “I mean, we get to come here, to something like this, together tonight, which is incredible.

“The whole band is going to be here as well. I think we’re going to have a great time.”

The apparent split comes weeks after Yasmin explained the pair were yet to be intimate outside the villa. She admitted she had been grieving the loss of her pet cat, Miaow Miaow.

And she praised Jamie for providing her with emotional support during the tough times. She also said the couple weren’t in a rush to progress with the romance.

“I’ve been going through grief and Jamie will just sit there when I cry on him,” she toldThe Sun. “I’ve taken a lot of time to process my emotions, so Jamie and I haven’t been intimate yet.”

She added: “He’s so patient. He’s never rushed that, because he knows it will happen at the right time.”

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Rock band’s frontman ‘disgusted’ after song used in Tommy Robinson protest

Rock band’s frontman Tim Booth, lead singer of the band James, is looking into his ‘options’ after his song Sit Down was played in the background of the Tommy Robinson protests

Rock band’s frontman Tim Booth, lead singer of the band James, is looking into his ‘options’ (Image: Redferns)

Rock band’s frontman Tim Booth, lead singer of the band James, has revealed he is ‘disgusted’ that his song was used in the Tommy Robinson protest rally, which took place in London on Saturday, 13 September.

The march was organised by the far-right activist Tommy Robinson, also known as Stephen Lennon, the Chief Executive of the UK’s largest anti-racism and anti-extremism movement.

More than 100,000 people joined the central London march, and a song by James was played. The song Sit Down was played in the background of a video posted on X, formerly known as Twitter, which panned around the crowd at the protest.

After witnessing the video, Tim took to social media to say he was ‘disgusted’ and that ‘no permission was granted’ to use the song under the circumstances. He said: “Disgusted to see the cynical use of ‘Sit Down’ by @TRobinsonNewEra. No permission was granted, and we are looking into our options. The song and most of our topical lyrics, make it very clear where we stand, and it’s the antithesis of this organization.”

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The march was organised by the far-right activist Tommy Robinson, also known as Stephen Lennon
The march was organised by the far-right activist Tommy Robinson, also known as Stephen Lennon

Tim has been known to share his opinions online and previously called out fellow musician Morrissey in 2018 and labelled him a ‘d**k’. The two were previously friends; however, that seemed to change after the former Smiths frontman reportedly expressed sympathy for Tommy Robinson,

Tim said: “I knew Morrissey as a friend when he was sweet, very shy, very frightened. Wanting success, wanting what happened with The Smiths and also terrified of it simultaneously. I saw about their seventh gig in Manchester and they were fully formed. They were ready, they were locked and loaded. And we weren’t.”, The Metro reported.

“They were so kind to us. Morrissey called us the best band in the world, they took us on tour, they tried to take us to America but we actually turned them down. And they were so sweet, all of them, for years. But I know he’s become a bit of a d**k. As I say, he did some very kind things for us so therefore it’s hard for me to say he’s a d**k but he’s being a d**k at the moment.”

The Tommy Robinson protest also included a surprise appearance from Elon Musk via videolink, and shared a string of harmful claims about the UK.

Tim has been known to share his opinions online and previously called out fellow musician Morrissey in 2018
Tim has been known to share his opinions online and previously called out fellow musician Morrissey in 2018(Image: Redferns)

He said: “I think there’s something beautiful about being British and what I see happening here is a destruction of Britain, initially a slow erosion but rapidly increasing erosion of Britain with massive uncontrolled migration. A failure by the government to protect innocent people, including children who are getting gang-raped.

“It’s unreal the government has failed in its duty to protect its citizens, which is a fundamental duty of government.”

Elsewhere, Weyman Bennett, co-convenor of Stand Up to Racism, said: “These far right thugs planned this to be a violent riot. They want a repeat of last summer’s violence – and more. Let’s stop pretending these are ‘concerned ordinary working class people’ – they are far right thugs who went to a demonstration organised by fascist Tommy Robinson.

“We are proud we organised a vibrant demonstration against them, but we need more opposition to the far right threat.”

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Meghan Markle’s former best friend ‘set to release explosive tell-all book’ about Duchess

EXCLUSIVE: Meghan Markle’s former best friend, Jessica Mulroney, could be poised to release a tell-all book about her fallout with the Duchess and what really went on behind closed doors.

Meghan Markle’s former best friend, Jessica Mulroney, could be poised to release a tell-all book about her fallout with the Duchess and what really went on behind closed doors(Image: Bloomberg Originals/Youtube)

Just when many thought everything had been said about Meghan Markle and Prince Harry, a close friend of The Duchess of Sussex’s could be poised to release a tell-all book. A source has revealed that Jessica Mulroney, a Canadian stylist and one of Meghan’s former best friends, could be putting pen to paper about the royal’s fall from grace.

Jessica was put through the wringer following a “white-privilege” scandal in 2020, where she was axed from TV gigs following her racially charged spat with lifestyle blogger Sasha Exeter.

She issued an apology at the time, while her then-husband Ben quit his job as a television presenter to help her with the rampant online — and professional — backlash, which led to a very public souring of her friendship with Meghan Markle.

Jessica archived her Instagram page at the time, and when she reinstated the page, a picture she had posted with Meghan had been removed. Now, a publishing insider says: “Jessica’s explosive story is the one publishers want to get their hands on. She could command up to a seven-figure dollar sum depending on what she is prepared to say.

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Meghan Markle and Jessica Mulroney
Meghan met Jessica while filming TV show Suits and became close friends with the stylist(Image: WireImage)
Meghan Markle
The Duchess is said to have ended the friendship after Jessica was embroiled in a race scandal(Image: WireImage)

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“There’s huge interest in Jessica’s perspective and her time in the royal spotlight when friends with Meghan. People would rush to buy Jessica’s book to know what really happened between them. Hers is the real story royal watchers want to read and are asking for.”

The two women had been best friends for years after meeting in Canada, where Jessica, 45, had introduced Meghan – who was then based in Toronto while filming Suits – to the city’s glittering social scene.

They remained close during the early stages of her relationship with her future husband, and Jessica’s children – twins Brian and John and daughter Ivy – even served as page boys and bridesmaid at Meghan and Harry’s royal wedding in 2018.

However, two years later, the pair went their separate ways as sources claimed at the time Meghan, 44, had ended the friendship due to the drama surrounding Jessica.

Until now, Jessica has maintained a diplomatic silence, failing to speak out on the notable silence from her once best friend she considered to have been like family – Meghan.

But if Jessica now chooses to tell her side of the story, it could entail opening up on her friendship with the royal,” says the source. “Jessica was let down and hurt by these false accusations swirling around her. She was really put through the mud in 2020 and has had an emotional time since then, watching from the sidelines while it all played out in the media with false reports about her, and unable to say anything.

Jessica Mulroney children
Jessica’s children – twin sons and a daughter – were pageboys and bridesmaid at Meghan and Harry’s royal wedding in 2018

“This could be her chance to set the record straight about a lot of things that she was accused of, after being cancelled,” says the insider.

They continued, “She has the receipts. No one had a voice for her and helped her to get the truth out at the time, so writing a book would be the chance to reclaim her power and counteract the false stories, like the one about the treatment of Princess Charlotte during the bridesmaid’s dress fitting in 2018 for Meghan’s wedding to Harry.

“If she goes ahead with a book deal, Jessica would finally be able to explain what really took place at that time and correct all the false narratives that have been spun around her.”

Back when the scandal broke, it was reported that Meghan reacted with shock after hearing of Jessica’s “tone deaf” threats to sue Exeter, and swiftly decided she can “no longer be associated with her”.

“Meghan is absolutely mortified that she’s been dragged into this complete mess. She said Jessica is in no way a racist, but the way she handled the situation was tone deaf and heartbreaking,” a friend of Meghan’s alleged at the time.

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Jeremy Clarkson welcomes adorable new family member to his Diddly Squat Farm

Former Top Gear host Jeremy Clarkson welcomed a few new adorable family members to his Diddly Squat farm after his dog gave birth this summer

Jeremy Clarkson welcomes adorable new family member to his Diddly Squat Farm(Image: Amazon Prime)

Jeremy Clarkson welcomed a few puppies to his Diddly Squat farm and delighted fans when he shared a clip of them running around. The former Top Gear host also took to his Instagram page to share a picture of himself cuddling with one of the puppies, Margarey.

Fans were obsessed with the adorable pooch and took to the comment section to gush over the newest addition to the family. One person joked: “Bigger than Hammond already,” and another posted: “Another one who won’t listen to a word you say!!! Omg so cute.” One fan commented: “Oh my heart….the fluff.”

A few days before, his partner Lisa Hogan shared a sweet video of a litter of pups exploring the porch.

The puppy is thought to be about six weeks old after Jeremy’s dog, Arya, gave birth on July 27.

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Jeremy shared a sweet picture with fans
Jeremy shared a sweet picture with fans(Image: INSTAGRAM)
Jeremy Clarkson's puppies
His dog Arya welcomed a litter of puppies(Image: Instagram)

“I know you’ve all been enjoying the football,” Jeremy said at the time. “But I’ve been rather busy, if I’m honest, because look what Arya has done,” before panning the camera to show the newborn pups with their mum.

His puppy update comes after he was hit with another major blow at his pub after a customer tried to claim a hefty payout over an alleged food intolerance. The former Top Gear host revealed that he was forced to provide proof in response to a disgruntled customer’s attempt to claim thousands in damages.

In his Times column, he highlighted the growing issue of food intolerance fraud for pub owners, writing: “We had one the other day who said she’d been given beer instead of cider and the gluten in it had made her so ill she’d had to cancel her holiday and we now had to reimburse her.

“Happily, we have her on CCTV not drinking beer, so we are safe on that one. But often landlords aren’t so lucky. Many tell me this food intolerance fraud is now an epidemic.”

He went on to slam “faddy eaters”, insisting they are damaging businesses across the UK, and even joked about banning those with intolerances.

He added: “I know it would be commercial suicide, but they are just so annoying.”

The Farmer’s Dog team have also faced numerous unpleasant issues from customers, from shocking finds in the toilets to drunken brawls.

“I do know that one day, after all the staff have left for the night, Rupert’s going to check the loos in his pub and find that someone has pebbledashed the walls with a gallon of diarrhoea.”

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