Ben Fogle, a TV star, has heartbreakingly described how his stillborn son’s birth caused a mental health crisis.
The broadcaster, 51, admitted he turned into a “control freak” after the death of son Willem in 2014. He thinks that his breakdown eventually resulted in him having suicidal thoughts. At 33 weeks, Ben’s wife Marina was rushed to an Austrian hospital where she delivered their stillborn son.
At the time, Ben was in Canada, miles away from his wife. The couple have sadly had a miscarriage in 2008 before the birth of their son Ludo, 15, and daughter Iona, 14. Williem’s devastating loss has been revealed by Ben, who admitted that Marina was “very raw” with her emotions while keeping them “inside.”
Speaking of his emotions, Ben said: “Mine were much more measured, it doesn’t mean I felt it any less, but I probably kept them within, and one of the big things that happened to me was that I became obsessed about control, because I’d lost control there. I had to take a flight back to Canada when it happened.
“I didn’t know if my wife was going to survive. It was like one of the periods in my life, I’ve had a few, when I had lost all control”, he told The Sun. Ben revealed that he had been undergoing a regimented course of therapy and medication to manage his mental health last year after sharing his experiences with anxiety and paranoia.
“A year ago, I experienced a mental health crisis. An episode. A storm. A blip. I don’t know if there is a specific term for it but it was basically a burnt out, breakdown”, he began his emotional post on Instagram. I’ve been on quite a journey since. I’ve learnt a lot about my neurological uniqueness.
“And I’ve navigated the storm. Through a mix of CBT, medicine, and now some alternative therapies I feel like my old self”, Ben explained, adding that he had managed to say goodbye to the “crippling paranoia and anxiety”. I’m telling you this first because I think it’s important to share our flaws with others who also share our successes.
” It is not to jump on some trend or for sympathy. Because I can happen to you if it does to me. But similar to what I have experienced, such as a pneumonia-ravaged lung or even a flesh-eating bug. We can heal. They don’t define us or make us weak. They prove that we are human. unable to handle modern life’s demands.
The increasingly complex world in which we live should not serve as a stigma, but rather as a reality check. I’ve found that simplifying my life and living less has helped me. Less social media. Less work and less striving for perfection are the outcomes. Stress less. Anger less Fixate less. More time has restored my perspective to reality. To being me. I’ve always been exactly the same person. Simple. Love, peace and simplicity”, he concluded.
After the crisis, Ben, who was later diagnosed with ADHD, admitted to considering suicide after spending a night at a “rural pub in the Cotswolds,” in a “rural pub in the Cotswolds.” He thought suicide was his only option, which he now brands as “one of the scariest experiences of]his] life”.
Advice and support can be found at Sands (stillbirth and neonatal death charity) if you have been affected by this tale. You can call them on 0808 164 3332 or email helpline@sands.org. uk
If you’re struggling and need to talk, the Samaritans operate a free helpline open 24/7 on 116 123. Alternatively, you can email jo@samaritans.org or visit their site to find your local branch
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