Former One Direction star Liam Payne died tragically last year when he fell from a balcony in Buenos Aires, Argentina
Liam Payne’s sister has sent an emotional tribute on the one year anniversary of her brother’s funeral. Liam passed away last year after falling from a hotel balcony in Buenos Aires in Argentina. Ruth has shared a string of tributes to the One Direction star since he died at the age of 31. She has now posted a sweet photo on her Instagram story.
The photo shows Liam, apparently in the early days of his career, posing with Ruth for the snap. Alongside the post, Ruth wrote: “A year ago today, the hardest goodbye I’ll ever have, a funeral I should never have had to plan and every day since, I should have never had to live without him.
” Missing him now is part of breathing, it doesn’t get easier, that’s just a lie to make it feel better: Infinite love, infinite loss. “
Ruth’s post comes soon after she shared another tribute on the one year anniversary of Liam’s death. On the anniversary, she shed light on her grief, as well as shared stories about her sibling.
A year on, she said she’s been” paralysed “by the grief as she still attempts to navigate her life without Liam. n emotional social media post, Ruth said:” 1 year, 12months, 52weeks, 365days… whichever way I say it, it still means the most heartbreaking truth that you’re not here any more.
“When you used to go away on tour, and I’d cry that you’d be gone for a while, I always knew you’d come back, but now I can’t get you home, I can’t meet up with you somewhere in the world, I can’t facetime or text to see how you’re doing, it’s an eternal homesick feeling because we can’t go back.
” I underestimated grief, woah did I underestimate it. I am paralysed by it daily. I thought I had felt it before but I know the losses before you were just intense sadness, you are the loss of my life, the one person who I will miss at every single occasion in my life.
“I’d taken for granted that my little brother would be there through life, what a cruel lesson to learn in our 30s, that a sibling is not guaranteed to be a lifer, that I have to face this without you.
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” Your death will never make sense, no matter how much I study it, whatever angle I look at it, it never makes sense. You shouldn’t have died.
“I have a reoccurring nightmare where I am in your hotel room just before it happened and you can’t hear me screaming for you, my brain is locked on your last minutes on this earth, the unaccounted minutes, the minutes I will never have the answers to, the minutes that changed everything”.
She went on to add that their children have “changed massively” and Liam would be “in awe” of his son Bear who he shares with Cheryl.
However, Ruth then said that despite life going on, she will feels his “void from all corners of the earth”. Liam’s blood showed traces of alcohol, cocaine and prescription anti-depressants, which would have left him severely impaired.
Liam had flown to Argentina for a five-day holiday with his girlfriend Kate to see his ex-bandmate Niall Horan’s show, but this extended to two weeks, with Kate later flying back to Miami days before his death.
