Lily Allen admits she ‘wanted to die’ and almost relapsed after David Harbour affair heartache

Following her devastating breakup with Stranger Things husband David Harbour, Lily Allen has spoken out about the decline in her mental health in British Vogue.

Lily Allen has revealed that she found herself in the midst of despair facing suicidal thoughts when it emerged that her husband, Stranger Things actor David Harbour, had been having a three-year affair behind her back. The singer and mum of two publicly split with her husband in December.

But she was just about to go back in when this happened.

In a new interview with British Vogue, ahead of the release of her latest studio album, she admitted that she put herself into rehab as she was feeling as though she “wanted to die.”

At the height of finding out that her husband, who she married in Las Vegas in September 2020, had been cheating on her, Lily revealed that she refused to use drink and drugs to ease the pain. A method that had worked for her in the past.

She explained to the fashion magazine, “I was feeling very depressed right now.” It was agonizing to sit with those feelings and choose not to use them because I last experienced them when I felt anything like that.

In a desperate effort to resist the temptation to use outdated coping mechanisms to deal with her heartache, Lily, 40, made the brave decision to check herself into rehab.

She continued, “I’ve entered those areas before against my will, and I think that’s progress.” That’s strength, she says, “on her self awareness.” I was like, “I need some time away,” when I realized that the things I was feeling were too extreme to handle.

Lily openly acknowledged that it was because of the fact that “I wanted to die” when she checked herself in.

The singer claimed that things were “really, really, really bad” in the wake of her breakup and that the star had a troubled relationship with food in the past.

She continued, “I was feeling very depressed right now. It was agonizing to sit with those feelings and choose not to use them because I last experienced them when I felt anything like that.

With an upcoming album modeled after her marriage to Stranger Things actor David, Lily, who has two daughters with her first ex-husband Sam Cooper, plans to rekindle her musical career.

But one of her songs, Sleepwalking, features her heartache over discovering that he had been having an affair with her.

You made me believe I was me in my head and not some girl in your bed, the song’s lyrics say.

She also wrote, “You know I used to be quite famous, that was way back then, and I probably should explain how my marriage has been open since my husband went wrong,” in a song called Dallas Major.

However, when the publication inquired as to whether the songs were her way of directly addressing her ex, she replied, “There are things on the record that I experienced within my marriage, but that’s not to say that it’s all gospel. What transpired in the relationship serves as inspiration for it.

She claimed she felt a mix of “confusion, sorrow, grief, helplessness” when she wrote the notes for her most recent album in seven years.

From Tuesday, October 21st, you can download the full feature from the November issue of British Vogue.

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‘I was married to Britney Spears, one phone call showed me she never got over Justin Timberlake’

Britney Spears’ ex-husband Kevin Federline has a bombshell in his new memoir about her alleged feelings for Justin Timberlake while they were married.

Britney Spears’ ex-husband has suggested she never “really got over” her ex-boyfriend Justin Timberlake. In Kevin Federline’s explosive new memoir, titled You Thought You Knew, Kevin Federline, who married the pop icon in 2004, dropped a bombshell involving Britney’s alleged feelings towards Justin whilst they were married.

In her own 2023 memoir, The Woman in Me, Britney revealed highly personal details about her relationship with pop icon Justin, whom she was in a relationship from 1999 to 2002.

Britney had reportedly become pregnant with the former NSYNC star’s baby but had an abortion as “Justin was so sure that he didn’t want to be a father”, something she described as “one of the most agonising things” she’s ever experienced.

Her romance with the Grammy-winning Cry Me a River singer was also a topic that emerged in Kevin’s book, who alleged that Britney called Justin the night before she was due to marry Kevin, reports the Telegraph.

It was purported that whilst “sobbing”, she vowed to him that she did indeed want to proceed with the marriage. Yet, in his words, he said he had the sense she had “unfinished business” with Justin.

He also suggested Britney never “really got over him” and described how Justin would ultimately remain in the background of their relationship, which ended officially with divorce in 2007. Federline described her ex-boyfriend’s presence as “like a ghost in the background”.

In response to allegations in the book, Britney, who has two children with her ex-husband Sean Preston and Jayden James, has since criticised Kevin’s “constant gaslighting.”

He also alleged that the Oops!…I Did It Again hitmaker would stand over their sleeping sons while holding a knife. Kevin alleged that their sons would wake up to find their mother watching them, only for her to leave the room without explanation.

In an Instagram post, Britney responded to what she termed her ex’s “gaslighting” and told her fans that she “always pleaded and screamed” to have a life with her sons.

She remarked, “Ex-husband constant gaslighting is incredibly painful and exhausting.” I’ve always pleaded and cried for my boys’ lives. It’s difficult to have relationships with teenage boys.

Britney also said she felt “demoralised by this situation” and had always asked and “almost begged” for her children to be a part of her life, but they’d witnessed the “lack of respect shown by their own father for me.”

They must assume accountability for themselves, she added. With one son only seeing me for 45 minutes in the past five years, and the other only making four visits. I’m proud of myself. I’ll notify them whenever I’m available from now on.

The only person who actually suffers here is Britney, who continued, “Truly, those white lies in that book are going straight to the bank.” You won’t care what I think about my drinking and mental health because I will always love them.

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The pop star then noted that she has been trying to lead a “sacred and private life” for the past five years and that she is speaking on this because she has “had enough.”

Olivia Attwood and husband Bradley Dack romance ‘at a crossroads’ over major decision

Olivia Attwood and Bradley Dack tied the knot two years ago but rumours have emerged recently that the pair are at a difficult point in their relationship

Olivia Attwood and husband Bradley Dack’s romance is “at a crossroads”, it has been reported. Rumours have hit the pair over recent weeks that they are on the rocks, just two years after they tied the knot.

It has been said that Olivia is allegedly not quite ready to have children yet but her footballer husband is keen to start a family. Friends of the couple have revealed that they have reportedly been arguing despite going on a double date this week with their friends.

The former Love Island star and her husband met up with Georgia Harrison and Jack Stacey while they went out for the evening together.

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A source told The Sun that the pair are “at a crossroads” and some of that is to do with their differing opinions on having children soon. They said: “They’re at a crossroads. Brad wants kids and is frustrated that Olivia won’t give him an answer about when she will start trying.

“He is worried she’ll never be ready because he is desperate to be a dad. It’s obviously hugely concerning because they are both in completely different headspaces when it comes to the next step in their marriage. There’s a worry that their relationship won’t recover if they can’t compromise.”

This comes as Olivia opened up about the realities of married life with her husband after fans started wondering why they have not been seen together recently.

The star has never shied away from speaking openly about the highs and lows of her marriage. Last week she shared a brutally honest update with her followers during a Q&A on Instagram.

One fan asked, “Where the helly is Brad?” as they referred to his absence from her social media recently. Olivia simply wrote: “He’s alive, I swear. 10 years of us. A lot has changed. Marriage is frikinnn hard (no one wants to say that part out loud) and I’m just not a faker.

“I’m not posting pictures if they don’t reflect our reality. We are doing our thing, and if there are any more updates, you will be the first to know.”

Olivia’s open admission come after months of speculation about her marriage, which were sparked by photos of her looking close to long-time friend Pete Wicks during a wild holiday in Ibiza.

She later said she could understand why the photos might have upset Bradley, but stressed that their marriage is still a “work in progress”.

The Loose Women panellist told Hello! magazine that she refuses to condemn people for gossiping about her relationship. “Sometimes the people that have the shiniest exterior have the most f***ed up stuff going on,” she said.

“Everyone has stuff going on behind the scenes, and they don’t talk about it, so when it comes to your own relationship, you have to give yourself a break.

“Also, weirder things happen in this industry than any other. I don’t condemn people for gossiping about my relationship because I love gossiping about other people.”

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The Mirror have contacted Olivia and Bradley’s reps for comment.

Jennifer Lopez reveals dramatic ‘Hollywood blonde’ hair transformation in new movie

JLo stars in new film Kiss of the Spider Woman – co-produced by ex-husband Ben Affleck – sporting striking platinum blonde hair that she admits she ‘didn’t think she could pull off’

We think that Jennifer Lopez could pull off just about any look, but apparently even she wasn’t convinced about her latest transformation.

In her latest role in new movie Kiss of the Spider Woman – for which she was recently seen amicably posing on the red carpet alongside ex-husband Ben Affleck, who co-produced the movie – JLo’s character sports a number of different hairstyles, including an ‘old Hollywood’ style platinum blonde ‘do – a huge change from her usual honey-brown balayage.

Speaking about the look, the 56 year old said in a recent interview with CBS Mornings, “I didn’t think that I was going to be able to [pull it off], but Bill [Condon, writer and director] was adamant that Aurora be a Hollywood blonde. I didn’t know how we were going to be able to do that but we figured it out.”

“It was [jarring at first],” she adds. “I felt like a totally different person. But I got very thin for the role and I wanted to embody what that kind of old Hollywood musical movie star was like.”

The actor and singer also posted some behind-the-scenes shots on her Instagram page showing her blonde hair, captioning the carousel: ‘I will forever cherish my Kiss family. See you this weekend at the theatre!”

The post has accumulated hundreds of comments from fans loving her new look.

“Marilyn Monroe vibes,” wrote one person.

“JLo with her hair blonde for this movie and her facial features reminds me of Gwen Stefani,” wrote another. “They could be twins.”

“Still caught in her web. What a dream creating these three stunning transformations with you,” wrote make-up artist Scott Barnes, who also worked on the movie.

This comes as Jennifer and Ben Affleck joined forces once again recently as they took to the red carpet for the movie’s premiere. The couple’s divorce was finalised last year after two years married, but they appeared to put their differences to one side as they stood side by side at the event in New York.

Ben, 53, was seen smiling as he wrapped his arm around the waist of his ex-wife. The pair looked in good mood as they posed for snaps and enjoyed intimate chat on their first return to a red carpet together since their split.

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The duo had fans jumping for joy when they got back together and tied the knot in July 2022. It came decades after they first got engaged in 2022.

M&S shoppers can bag ‘soft to the touch’ trousers that are ‘crease proof’ for £10

Shoppers at Marks & Spencer who want the ideal pair of comfortable pants that can be dressed up or down and are praised as “crease-proof” can now purchase these pants for tenners.

This time of year, we’re all swapping out our wardrobes for staple cosy and comfy pieces that are sure to keep us snug through the chilly months ahead. And it seems M&S is the place to beat, with its warm and chic knits and versatile joggers that have been praised for their styling prowess.

For a reduced price of $35.20, shoppers can now purchase a pair of these Modal Blend Striped Wide Leg Joggers in a chic Ecru shade. These trousers are still available in shades 6 through 22 and are only available in sizes 24 and 24. 5-star reviewers have hailed them as “crease-proof.” Plus, they have a chance to purchase them for just £9.99.

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After the cashback bonus, M&amp, S’s new customers and new TopCashback members can purchase the joggers for £9.99, which is 15% less than their already reduced price of £25.20. Customers must register with TopCashback via this link to profit from the offer.

Whether you’re wearing the joggers outside or in the yard, the soft-touch, lyocell-rich fabric will give you a luxurious feel that’s sure to keep you comfortable. These pants have an elasticated waistband and a drawstring fastening that makes it easy to adjust and feature an improved comfort for a flattering wide-leg fit with added stretch. Additionally, they have side pockets that make it simple to carry your essentials close at hand.

These joggers, which are a part of the M&amp, S Collection, are going to become a wardrobe staple by combining traditional and contemporary styles for any occasion.

These joggers are available in Navy or Ecru, but only those with this offer are eligible for the latter. They have nearly 100 5-star reviews from satisfied customers.

One thrilled customer exclaims, “They are the best clothing I’ve purchased from M&amp, S in a long time.”

Another satisfied customer exclaims, “SO SOFT! Great for use at home or at work. excellent quality

This customer praises the item as being “a joy to wear, comfortable and soft, and fits very well.” Ideal for comfort after knee surgery. can be worn with a blazer, a blazer, etc., or a more casual, versatile piece of clothing.

The softest material, the most comfortable pants I’ve bought in a long time, says a fourth phrase. “!

One customer does express regret, saying, “I may have to return these, which is unfortunate, but the fit is worse than my other M&amp, S trousers.”

However, this buyer continues to sing “Love these joggers” and “Love these joggers.” sufficient to endure. The material is so soft to the touch but almost crease-proof. Wish they had been discontinued. Despite the fact that they may have shorter customers, they do note.

Another customer gushes, “These bottoms are so comfortable you can dress up or down.”

The viral Flex High Waisted Pocket Wide Leg Waffle Work Trousers from Halara are available for $ 28.95 in a wide range of shades for an alternative jogger that can be easily added to your workwear collection. Next is also selling these Mocha Brown Active Modal Supersoft Wide Leg Trousers for $ 34.

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How can you purchase the M&amp, S joggers for $9.99?

    Use this link to register for free at TopCashback as a new member.

  • Search for M&amp, S on the website, then click through to purchase the item as is. When you spend at least £15, you receive £15 in cashback.
  • Within seven days of purchase, the cashback will be posted to the “Earnings page” of TopCashback.

James Martin says ‘I wish I had more time’ as he opens up on family loss

TV chef James Martin has opened up about his family life and shared a heartbreaking confession as he revealed the one person he wishes he could be more like

TV chef James Martin has made a touching revelation as he reflected on his deep affection for a beloved family member who has passed away.

For years, James has cemented his position as one of Britain’s most esteemed chefs, but in an intimate glimpse into his personal life, he revealed how a crucial life lesson has propelled his professional success.

Speaking recently on the Road To Success with Benedict Fowler podcast, James discussed his late grandmother and expressed his desire to emulate her qualities, explaining: “It sounds daft talking about your granny, but if I could be 10% of what my granny is, I’d be 110% a better person (than I am now).”

Expressing his deep respect for his grandmother, he noted that the only individual who matched her presence was the late Queen Elizabeth in terms of her dignified manner, stating: “My granny, it sounds daft, but my granny was the same (as Queen Elizabeth), because she’d walk into a room and I don’t know if it was how I was brought up, but you were told respect and you shut up and listen. And I valued that so much.”

Additionally, he made a poignant admission as he continued: “I wish I had more time to ask more questions. But I wasn’t old enough at the time to fully understand it. Now you realise you should have asked more questions.”

Nevertheless, beyond revealing this heartfelt family tribute, James has witnessed his career flourish throughout the years, featuring across numerous television programmes.

Starting his professional career in France, one of his first roles was at the three-Michelin-star restaurant Maison Troisgros in Roanne, France.

He later returned to the UK, taking up a position as a pastry chef at Chewton Glen Hotel.

However, despite honing his craft in high-end restaurants, he is most recognised for his television career, with his first on-screen role in 1996 appearing on a variety of shows, including James Martin: Yorkshire’s Finest, Ready Steady Cook, and The Big Breakfast.

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Since then, he has become a familiar face in British households, with his latest TV endeavour being his own ITV cookery show, James Martin’s Saturday Morning.

Each week, he welcomes celebrities into his Hampshire home, showcasing his culinary prowess.